Saturday, March 22, 2008

Relay For Life

Each year I participate in two fund raising events. The first one is the Relay For Life. The second one is the Armstrong Challenge. Both of these events help raise money to fight cancer.

Cancer has touched all of our lives in one way or another. We know someone who is battling the disease right now. We know someone who has passed away from cancer. We know muillions of other people the world over battle this disease daily.

I work for these two fund raisers because I beleive in what they do to thelp those with cancer. This year I will be spending the night at a high school track doing the Relay for Life. It is a 24 hour walk to raise awareness and funds for the American Cancer Society.

Please help me reach my goal! Please donate on my personal page and help me battle cancer with the funds needed for research and treatment!

Thank you for your support!
Tami

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Murk Moved Me

It has been a long time since I have been online and even longer since I have written anything. Dont think its quite as long as the Piper has taken off from blogging but pretty close. I have been dealing with some pretty crappy anxiety issues recently. I am trying to overcome them but they have been a test for me.
One night last week I went online and read Dr. Murks blog. If you have not read him, you really should. The post was The Generation of Promises. I like to read Murk because he provokes all kinds of responses. Some people get upset and lash out. Some people agree and add there own thoughts. Most of the time I am just a reader who enjoys what he writes.
This post was different for me though. I wont get all mushy and say that he had this major impact but he really made me think of the way I go about living.
I want to do something good for others. I want to be a better person. Why is there such a want but very little in the way of action? Is it laziness? Is it fear? Is it selfishness?
I have given this some thought and put it in context in my daily life. I watched for a few days the way strangers interact. I was really kind of saddenned by what I saw. There was an accident on 195 the other day and one lane had to merge into the middle lane. No one would let these other cars in line. Why? We were going nowhere at all. What was the harm of letting a car in the line? People were flipping each other off and yelling. No one was going anywhere fast. At the mall I watched three people pass by an elderly woman struggling to open the mall doors with her packages in her hand. I opened the door as she walked out and she smiled and said thank you. It felt good. Small but good.
I am not a cynical person and I really believe that most people try to live in a good way. I think for most people, including myself, it is more lack of attention than anything else. When I get in the mall I hardly notice those around me. I dont smile or make random conversation. I go to work, pick up the kids, make dinner, workout and do it all again the next day. It is routine.
Well thank you Murk for making me see that I am routine. I have decided that I am going to try to be better. I am going to make an impact in even small ways. If I believe in the good of mankind I should contribute to that good as well. Think about it!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

I'm Your Private Dancer


Most people stalk the rich and famous. They will stand in line for hours to see a concert or catch a glimpse of a movie star. As many of you already know, I am not like most people.

I discovered this last weekend that I stalk chefs and bakers. Give me a man who knows what wine goes with the fabulous meal he just prepared and I would be his. If not his forever, at least for four good hours!

I found out the other day that Andrew Shotts, the owner of Garrison Confections, was in Providence. It appears that his shop is in Providence. I was obsessed about going. The shop was very nice and I bought a few really great items. I bought some buttery toffee, 3 flavored chocolates and some chocolate covered gummi bears. The highlight for me was that while I was there, Andrew Shotts came into the shop. I stood there like a teenage girl. Could not say anything except hi. He said hi and disappeared into the back of the shop. Mad highlight of my day.

So if you can bake or cook watch out. I could be stalking you too soon.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Innocent Angel Lady

New nickname given to me by my friend Jeff. After the week I have had, I gladly took the new nickname. This week I have had more negative interactions with men than ever in my life. Apparently I am trouble with a big capital "T" Which is funny because that is how I sign my emails at the bottom (~T~). Maybe that is where "friend A" got the idea to actually call me that.While venting to poor Jeff, I said I didint understand where it came from because I am a really laid back kind of person. I consider myself pretty easy to get along with. I said, I change the batteries in my halo all the time. Hence the new nickname.

Got stood up today too. Never had that happen to me before so I guess I am lucky. I got asked to breakfast and I was the only one who showed. No call, no response to my call. Oh well it was just breakfast and it was just two old friends catching up. Courtesy might have been nice but it did not happen. Looked damn cute too.

My new theme song. Maybe if I was not so laid back I would have better interactions.


~T~

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Calling All Irishmen

Took my oldest daughter, Brenna, to see P.S. I Love You tonight. This movie, combined with the Piper's travel journal, makes me want to go to Ireland. The scenary was beautiful and the men in this movie complemented the scenary very nicely.
If you are a wussy, hopeless romantic, smushy girl like me, then go see this movie but bring a huge box of tissues. This movie made me ugly cry for the entire two hours. I was going to go to the grocery store after and could not because of how red and swollen my eyes were after the film. The movie is about this woman who loses her husband at the age of 35. They are truly in love and this is easily conveyed in the first ten minutes of the film. Like I said, I am a hopeless romantic so seeing this much romance in ten minutes was enough to make me start cryig. The he dies and she cannot move forward. It was a great chick flick but probably the saddest movie I have seen in a long time.

New Year
I wanted to thank everyone for their love and support in 2007. I am looking forward to 2008.
* I started back at the gym again and feel really good that I am running daily. 5K season is coming up and I cant wait. I am hoping to travel to a few places to compete this year too. Wish me luck!
* I promised my friend Jeff that I would learn how to invest this year. He has been a great help to me with my finances and budget now that Iam out on my own. He is a very smart man and I am grateful that he is willing to help someone who is not very stock market savy. Plus he answers my really stupid questions like, "how do you know that stock has dividends."
* I am booking my trip to Vegas. This is one place I have really wanted to go so I am going this year. I am not sure if I will be going alone or with friends but either way I am set on going. I want to see Cirque and stay at the Bellagio.
* Piper, I will find what makes me happy too and do it! Feel free to kick my butt if I ever get that "oh poor me" on you again.

So far for me that's it for 2008. It will not be an easy year with some of the 'life" stuff I have set before me. I am ready for it though. I realized on the treadmill today that I alone got back home where I wanted to be. Many times while trying I thought I would just give up. It was very hard. My daughters did not want to move, my husband did not want to let go and the journey seemed impossible. I am here now and rebuilding and I will be fine. For a 4'11 wussy, hopeless romantic girl, I am very strong!

Happy New Year!!!!

Monday, December 17, 2007

There's Booze in the Blender

Soon it will render
That frozen concoction that helps me hang on


Mardi Gras
Not the religious holiday or party in New Orleans but the multiplex night club in Warwick, RI. This is where I found myself last Saturday night. My old friends thought that I might need a night out with the girls, dancing and drinking. As I paid my cover, made my way to the bar and dance floor, I asked myself something. What the hell am I doing here? The dance floor was small and sweaty. The theme of the first club was hip hop and the walls were painted with an aquarium theme. This theme was complete with big plastic sharks circling the perimeter. How fitting! The second club as a country western line dance bar. Oh my god I thought I had left Texas. You are not country because you wear a cowboy hat and live in RI. Just not getting it at all. The next one was a rock bar. The band in the bar sucked so bad that I could not drink them better. Finally, I just drank my watered down beer and danced with my friends. Problem is that you are never just dancing with your friends. You have those sharks circling all the time. They wink, stare, buy you drinks and hope that you will go home with them. Ummm no!

Death
Once again I have been faced with death. I believe that everythng in my life happens for a reason but I am wondering why I death seems to be at my side. Last week I had my own episode and it took me a good week to come to terms with what went on. Last night in the ER, I witnessed the death of a teenager involved in a car accident. My cousin took her infant son to the ER and asked me to go to help. I gladly went and stayed with her to give her a hand. While there they brought in a teenager who died in a car accident. I cannot imagine the grief that family was about to suffer and luckily we were able to leave before they bought the family back to see their child. I will discover what it is that I need to learn from all of this but until then it is freaking me the fuck out.

Happy Birthday Piper
December 18th is the Angry Piper's birthday. Piper and I have been friends for over 20 years. I could not let the day go by without wishing him a Happy Birthday. I raise my glass to you my friend. Happy Birthday! I hope it is a good one.
Remember, "life is full of entree's, dont fill up on bread."

Monday, December 10, 2007

Welcome Home ER Visit

If you would have asked me last week when I thought I would ever get back to my old place of work, I would not have said soon.
Unfortunately for me fate had another answer in mind.
Last night I went to watch the NE Patriots game at a good friends house.
The game was great to watch, until the 3rd, when the Pats really just ran away with the ball. I had 3 beers, some nachos, chicken wings and hung out for a bit. It was getting close to 8pm and I thought it was about time to call it a night. For those of you with school age kids you know that 8:00pm on a school night is considered late. Long gone are the days of drinking at Frat parties until 3:00am and then heading to Economics first thing in the morning. Just no longer happens. Right before I left the house I made one big mistake.

My friend has been using a new supplement that has worked wonders for her.
She had been talking this drink up all night long. It really works for her and has lowered her cholestorol and improved her overall health. She told me it was made of fruits and berries and it tasted very good. Before walking to my car she handed me a shot class with about 2 ounces of juice in it. I drank it down, commented on its taste and took my kids to the car.

On the way home I turned onto Sodom road. It is not a very well lit or straight road. It is known to test your driving ability with its quick turns on rainy nights. Last night was one of them. My daughters and I were signing Christmas carols and just being silly. When I got to the middle of the street I began to have some after effects of this drink. My heart began to race, I got sweaty and cold. I had a tough time swallowing. I tried to blow it off and keep driving. I stopped at a local store to buy a bottle of water to possibly help with these symptoms. As I approached the door, the owner told me they were closed and I could not get the water. I hopped back in the car and flew about 6 miles to my parents house. Once inside I tried to lay down to see if I could get the symptoms to pass. I told my mother what went on and that I thought I was having a reaction to the drink. She took my blood pressure and my pulse. My BP was 135 over 120 and my pulse was 130. I tried again to rest. No stopping my rapid heartbeat. Feeling like I was going to pass out I asked my mom to call an ambulance. I really felt very ill.

Westport resuce arrived from the Main rd station, in what felt like ten minutes. I am sure it was less. Once inside the ambulance they ran an IV and hooked me up to the blood pressure machine. I started ringing all types of bells during the ride as my blood pressure topped out at 145 over 155. At this time I felt like I was going to pass out for sure. I was hot, dizzy and had the thoughest time swallowing. Once inside the ER they gave me a wonderful little pill that reversed the effects of the little purple drink. It brought my heart rate under control and I was home sometime after midnight. I was warned to avoid caffeine and nicotine as well as any other stimulant. It appears that this little drink contained a lot of berries that are stimulants. Again, I only drank 2 ounces. I felt the effect of this stimulant for the rest of the night. I had episodes for the rest of the evening where my heart raced and then slowed down again. I was very lucky.

Everyone in the ER asked me why I would have just drank the drink. First of all this person giving it to me is a friend and we have been friends for a while. She was not trying to kill me. Secondly, I have never experienced a reaction to any food or drink in my life. I am not an allergy prone person. Not the smartest thing I have ever done and I sure as hell will never do it again. This also means that Red Bull and all energy drinks are out of the line up for me, so said the nice ER doctor. I will listen too. No rush to visit my old place of employment anytime soon

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Letter

Once again I am a slave to the great Malach. Actually I thought this one was pretty cool.

Imagine you could send a letter back in time to yourself, when you were 13 years old, what would you write to yourself?

Tami,
The year is 2007 and I am your 35 year old self. I am writing to give you a little look into your future. Hopefully you will find this information helpful and not blow it off like you do the warnings of others as you age.

Dating - Here are a few names to avoid in the near future. This one you will date because you are competitive. Avoid Louie like the plague. Yes, you will win but you will give him back in a short amount of time. He will take you to a Valentine dance where you will be teased by Dave H about your 'guns" and he will not defend you. You will look very good at this dance and you will keep the dress you wore that night well into your 30's. You will get a compliment that night from Mark. He will walk you to the corner to wait for your Mom for a ride. You will fall in love later in life with Bill. You think this is the one but he is not. You will date him for a while but it will end. Ted is just a jerk and Griffin is way too crazy for you. Trust me on these guys.

School - Whatever you do dont leave college. Even though you are homesick and you want to quit, dont. Transfer to the geek dorm and finish your education. You can be the doctor you always wanted to be and be very good at it. You dont need to commute, because you will never finish. You will have a great job that pays well but it will never be your life's love.

Marriage - Dont rush into this at all. Your true friends will warn you and tell you this is just not the right time. Listen to them. You never admit to them that they were right but they were. You will be married for 14 years and some of them are good. A lot of it is just tough. Not bad, just tough. It will test the person you are. You will be ok in the long run. You leave the marriage in year 14 and you are working really hard to rebuild and be ok. You have some great friends and support and that helps.

Family - Your daughters are great. They are smart and beautiful. They are strong. You are very proud of them. You will have them after your a doctor so dont quit school to get married and have a family. They will wait for you. Tell your sister that you love her and value that friendship. She will not be with you through your whole life and you will regret what you did not say and do. Fix this now because it will be a source of anxiety for you as you grow older. When the phone rings in the yard that summer day and you are with Carol, answer it. This is your greatest regret in your life with her. You will not get another chance.

Friends - You will have many as you age. They will all teach you something about yourself. Keep the ones who play Dungeons and Dragons and tell you to leave because girls are not allowed. They make you laugh and are there for you. You will have them well into your adult life. Tell them how much they mean to you.

Tips:
Dont ask the guy at U Mass if you can eat what he is holding. It is a gold circle condom not a chocolate. Save yourself!
Watch American Werewolf In London in Nantucket. It will scare the crap out of you but will make a great memory.
Dont move to Texas. It is not where you want to be,you will not be happy and it will cost you a fortune to move back. You will move back.
Find better taste in music. Most of the time you listen to crap. HAHAHA
Run! Dont think you need to set records or run marathons to be a runner. Your a runner because you run.
Join the gym. You look great at 35!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

The Daily Show

Regardless of how tired I am, rarely do I miss The Daily Show. I am disappointed when I turn it on and its a repeat. There is no other show that I love to watch as much, except CSI (Las Vegas).

I have come to the conclusion that I have an odd attraction to intelligence. I am the one in the crowd drawn to the professor. I recently found the Six Sigma trainer who came to my work to certify me, very attractive. I have never enjoyed the DMAIC principles more. God I am such a geek! With CSI, its William Petterson who does it for me. The intelligence of his character draws me in and keeps me watching. You all know I have a crush on Mike Rowe and now I add Jon Stewart to that list as well. I watch The Colbert Report too but can turn it off and go to bed just the same.

Why I like The Daily Show:
Cluster Fuck to the White House - No other description fits better
Indecision 2008 - Very true
You Dont Know Dick - Where I learned Dick Cheyney removed his house from Google maps and has a man size safe in his office
Ahmadina Minute - Fun to say
Moments of Zen - Just have to watch them to know what I mean
Back in Black - Lewis Black is just hilarious at times stating the obvious
Aasif Mandvi - He delivers his material as if he truly belives what he is saying
He asked Valerie Plame if her breasts were still covert - Regarding the fact that her book has parts that were redacted by the CIA
George W Bush - So many clips of the stupid things this president says

This one speaks for itself:

Monster's Got Your Back

Check it out!

Monday, October 29, 2007

Malach Made Me Do it

I am a geek like this so I will do this post.

1) Name one person who made you laugh last night: My youngest daughter Morgan who can do an uncany impression of me yelling.
2) What were you doing at 8:00AM?: Listening to an irate customer tell me that my assessment of late fees is usery and then listening to the dial tone
3) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?: Frosting one of my new creations. A pumpkin cheesecake pecan torte
4) What happened to you in 2006?: Promoted to management. Decided to return home
5) What was the last thing you said out loud?: You are wearing too much makeup, to my oldest daughter
6) How many beverages did you have today?: I have an issue with anxiety so I have a water bottle with me at all times. I drink a lot all day. I had 5 20oz bottles of water, two diet pepsi lime and 2 glasses of wine
7) What color is your hairbrush?: black
8) What was the last thing you paid for? Sex, oh wait I thought that said got paid for! Just kidding.
9) Where were you last night?: Packing my house and watching the Sox
10) What color is your front door?: Rose and its god ugly. Former owner liked rose
11) Where do you keep your change?: In a old milk bottle on my bureau.
12) What’s the weather like today?: Sunny and 75 degrees
13) What’s the best ice-cream flavor?: Chocolate peanut butter and Dulche de Leche
14) What excites you?: Completing a long run and an intelligent conversation.
15) Do you want to cut your hair?: Yes. My sister is my hair stylists and I only cut it when I go home for a visit
16) Are you over the age of 25?: Yes, but really dont feel my age
17) Do you talk a lot?: No I am more of a listener unless I am excited or nervous.
18) Do you watch the OC?: I second Malach, oh Hell no.
19) Do you know anyone named Steven?: Yes, he is my brother
20) Do you make up your own words?: Of course, I am from MA so a lot of things I say cannot be considered english
21) Are you a jealous person?: No not at all
22) Name a friend whose name starts with the letter “A.”: Dont have one
23) Name a friend whose name starts with the letter “K.”: Keith and Kyle
24) Who’s the first person on your received call list?: Kyle
25) What does the last text message you received say?: I hate stupid people
26) Do you chew on your straw?: No but I chew gum .
27) Do you have curly hair? Only when wet
28) Where’s the next place you are going to go?: Bed and I cant wait
29) Who’s the rudest person in your life?: My sister Carol who always says it like it is
30) What was the last thing you ate?: Spaghetti and meat sauce. I made it for dinner
31) Will you get married in the future?: No, I am currently going through a divorce and dont see myself doing it again, unless...
32) What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the last 2 weeks?: The only movie I have seen is Sidney White and it was not the best
33) Is there anyone you like right now?: Wow thats kind of 5th grade.
34) When was the last time you did the dishes? Just now at 9:30pm after frosting my torte
35) Are you currently depressed?: No I dont get depressed easily
36) Did you cry today?: No
37) Why did you answer and post this?: Malach made me do it
Tag 5 people who would do this post: Sara Sue, Dr Murk, Angry Piper, Angry Veteran

Thursday, October 25, 2007

ABC

Ok so I was not tagged but I thought I would do it anyway. This week for me has been way too overwhelming so I took some time off this morning from work.


A I am Athletic - Played softball in high school and now run 5K's goal to run a half marathon
B Brick House - I live in one in Texas
C Cakes - I love to bake its my favorite hobby. Hope to own my own bakery one day
D Diet Pepsi - Learned as a teenager that their is no other soft drink. Always taste better to me though poured by someone else, intended for someone else but drank by me.
E Evil Genuis - This is my safe word for my dominatrix play. Just kidding its actually the password into my secret lair
F Friends - I only have a few that I have had lasting friendships with and would be sad if they disappeared
G Grow - Wish I would have grown more I am only 4'11"
H Half Pint - Nickname given to me by my mom and still used to this day
I Interesting - How I respond when I dont know what else to say
J Jesuit - Went to a Jesuit high school and college.
K Kootie Queen - Dirty mouth Clean it up
L Las Vegas - Where I promised myself I would go on vacation if I survive the move and other things
M MA - Where I am from and where I am returning to on Nov 23rd
N New - Entering a new phase in my life. Excited and scared to death at the same time
O Oil of Olay - What I rub on my body to keep it young
P NE Patriots - Want to go to a game when I get home
Q Queen - Have their cd in my car and listen to it depending on my mood
R Red Sox - Favorite team of mine Never been to a game.
S Small - What my breasts are not HAHAHA
T TNT, TT, Tamster - TNT is actually my work code for the computer system. Try calling that in to the helpdesk when you have a PC issue All others are nicknames
U Umbrella - You can stand under my umbrella ella ella eh eh
V Vixen - When I become a superhero this will be part of my name
W Workaholic - Thats me to a tee
X Sesame Street - loved the guy who carried the X around and painted it everywhere
Y Yosemite - Would like to visit there too
Z Zeus - If I ever have a son this will be his name ;)

Sunday, October 14, 2007

I am a Dork

Tonight was my oldest daughters first real concert. She has gone into Austin to see Boys Like Girls, The Audition, We the Kings and All Time Low at La Zona Rosa. My youngest daughter decided early on today that because her and I would be alone, we should go and see Sydney White. It was your feel good teen movie with Amanda Bynes. The girl got the guy at the end and everyone lived happily ever after. For a teen movie it was not that bad and parts of it were actually funny. During the movie she becomes friends with 7 guys who live in this house called The Vortex. They are all outsiders who re-enact video games for fun and who have a pet rat called Bilbo. One part that made me laugh was the end where everyone stood up, said something about themselves and proclaimed, "I'am a dork." So here is my salute.

I am a dork
1) I watch CNN even when there are others things on television
2) I love Dirty Jobs and have a secret crush on Mike Rowe
3) I cry at some Hallmark commercials
4) I watch scary parts in movies and television with my hands over my eyes
5) I still go trick or treating, with my girls, of course
6) I sing out loud and have been known to use the phrase, "how sad would it be if only the birds with the most beautiful voices in the forest, sang."
7) I say things like, wicked good, goodness gracious or good lord
8) I firmly believe one of my friends is a super hero who changes in his closet and fights the forces of evil in his spare time
9) I use an excel spreadsheet to keep track of my bills
10) I know the intimate workings of an automated voice response system and if you need to redesign your website I am the girl to ask.
11) I love the family that I was born into and enjoy spending time with them. Most of the time.
12) I have books downloaded to my iPod for long plane trips
13) I read Paradise Lost for fun and almost bought myself a beautiful hard cover addition at Barnes and Nobles last weekend.
14) I cannot eat anything without spilling some part of it on my shirt
15) If you can break it, ruin it, trip over it, fall in it or dent it, I will be the one to do it.

You all have some dorky qualities too.

Live Strong

I would like to say thank you to everyone who supported me during the 2007 LiveStrong Challenge. It was wonderful! It was in the low 80's on Saturday morning which helped make the day truly beautiful. The girls and I were up at 5:00am to drive the hour to Austin to make the event. Lance was there to wish all the participants a good race and to talk about the legislative propostion for cancer research that is coming up for a vote.
The 5K was all down hill to start and then all up hill to finish. It was a challenge, but very fun. Just like last year I was once again humbled by those around me. Riding in a bike wagon in front of me was a family that had a beautiful picture of their 9 year old son on the back of the wagon. The caption simply read, "In Memory of." The fact that I was there with my oldest daughter, who complained the whole 3 miles that we were going to fast, and my youngest daughter who kept telling me through the whole race that she wore the wrong shoes was no longer important. I had them! I had both of my children there with me. I did not have to look at a picture of them or try and remember what their voice sounds like. I had tears in my eyes as I passed this family and they smiled at us and said, "thank you and live strong." My oldest daughter said, 'wow mom that sucks, doesint it?" She then said 'can we slow down." I smiled at her and said " yes it does and dont be such a wuss."
We finished the event and went to Starbucks for some coffee. We sat and watched others finish for a little while before going home. These are the days when I realize how fortunate I really am. It was great to see so many runners and riders come out for a worthy cause. In the words of the family that I passed on the road, "thank you and live strong!"

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Live Strong

This weekend is my next 5k. I have not run a 5k in a little while but this one is for a very worthy cause. This is the LiveStrong Challenge in Austin. I participated last year and was inspired. There were people running and riding in this race days after they finished chemotherapy. How they had the courage or the strength to participate is beyond me. Some ran in memory of those who they had lost to the fight. Some were older, some were young, some ran for the children they had lost and some for those who were fighting. Some people had a day pass out of the hospital to participate. I am very proud to be part of this challenge again this year. This is the link to my donation page if anyone would like to contribute.

http://austin07.livestrong.org/tamiteixeira

Friday, October 05, 2007

Tag I'm It

Ok Malach only because you hot! :)

1) Deep voices make me wet. I once wanted to date a Stang high school football player because he had an amazingly deep voice.

2) I have also known the Angry Veteran and Angry Piper for 20 plus years. I have a picture of the Angry Veteran carrying an ice bucket down a hallway during a teen club ski trip.

3) I work as a call center manager for a large company. So please do your best not to ask to speak to a manager because you may be speaking to me.

4) I am 4 foot 11 inches tall and resemble Betty Boop but some people find that attractive.

5) I hate horror movies. Does not matter what movie or how stupid it is, I will not be able to sleep by myself after watching it.

6) I am moving back to New England very soon and can't wait. After three years of living in Texas I cant wait to scrape my windows in the morning.

7) I am a baker at heart. I make the most fantastic chocolate ganache triple layer cake you will ever wrap your tongue around.

Monday, September 24, 2007

My Lobotomy

Yesterday was the first day of Fall. This is my favorite time of year. I remember taking trips to New Hampshire and renting a small cabin for a couple of days near Franconia notch. I loved the smell the woodstove generated and how crisp the morning air felt when I stepped out on the porch with my first cup of coffee. I loved wrapping myself in a blanket and sitting out there until my toes went a little numb. Today things are very different. It is 94 degrees in Texas. The air is still thick and humid. Went running Saturday and Sunday night and could not even catch a breeze. Just not the same.

I was at Barnes and Nobles on Saturday and came across the new book I am reading. It is called, My Lobotomy, A Memoir. It is written by Howard Dully and Charles Fleming. It is the true story of the life of Howard Dully. When Howard was 12, his step mother convinced his father that Howard's behavior would be better controlled through a lobotomy. A transorbital lobotomy was performed on Howard at the age of twelve by Dr. Walter Freeman. Although a Portuguese physician invented the lobotomy, Dr. Freeman ran with the procedure. His files indicate that he operated on more than 4000 patients with Howard being the youngest at twelve. This is probably one of the most disturbing books I have read in a long time. It is set in the 1950's and 60's when mental health was just not discussed and children were the property of their parents. The story recounts abuse, neglect and corporal punishment that Howard received at the hands of his step mother and father. It illustrates the power that parents have over the welfare of their children. Dr. Freeman met Howard and could not find the issues that his step mother repeatedly complained about, but went ahead with the surgery anyway. A good portion of the book is told by way of memories that his brothers have because he is unable to remember much past the surgery. I am halfway through the book and Howard is just about to be abandoned in an asylum by his ever so loving parents for the next few years of his life. I am disturbed by the book, but cannot put it down. Howard Dully lives today in San Jose California and works as a tour bus driver. He is married. Apparently this book is about triumph of the human spirit to overcome any obstacle. I am hoping to finish it today.

Judge OKs 'Hitler Youth' Buttons to Protest School Uniform Policy - Not sure if anyone saw this news article. I was watching an interview on CNN yesterday with mothers of two of the boys who are wearing these buttons. They are protesting because they put their children in public school and do not feel that they should be subject to school uniforms. One mother stated on CNN that, "the government should not have the right to tell her how to dress her children." Not really sure how I feel about this one. First, I don't think the children wearing the buttons actually understand what the image on the button conveys. I do not agree with a parent using their child as a walking billboard of protest. The children are the ones who are subject to punishment because of the buttons, not their parents who obviously made them. I wore a uniform for most of my childhood and truly grew up wearing it. It made little difference to me. Most of my friends wore uniforms in high school as well. Probably the only time you would see them in a tie to this day. I guess this debate will continue for years to come as more and more school districts try to adopt uniforms.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Bad day at work today and it just promises to get worse before it gets better. Thankfully I only have 2 and 1/2 more days before I start my mini vacation. I board a plane Tuesday out of Austin at 3pm and wont get back until Wednesday morning. I am looking forward to just relaxing and not thinking about life or work. I am looking at a few houses on Saturday. A little concerned that one of them will be falling down because the price is in the one fiftys and that is unheard of for my home town.

Work
I work in a call center. Everyone at some point has had some interaction with a call center agent. Either you have called your cell phone or credit card company or have received a call from a telemarket company. I work in an inbound environment which just means that people call us because they either want our service or they have a problem. This type of work, believe it or not, is very difficult. You are tied to a desk by a headset for 8 to 10 hours a day. You get scheduled lunches and breaks but other than that you are suppossed to be taking calls. It is one of the few jobs where people cannot get up and pee without other people knowing where you are. These agents do not make a great pay either unless they have done the job for a while. They get yelled at for policies that are not theirs to make. They are the voice of the comapny because you cannot get through to the policy makers in the company. Some are very good at their jobs and should be praised for what they do. Others are bad at their jobs, hate their jobs and these agents need to have their supervisors know they did poorly.

Vacation
I have never taken one. I take mini ones now and then but I have never taken a full vacation some place other than back to my home town. I am looking to take a real vacation this year. I would like to go to Vegas and I would like to go someplace tropical or maybe Europe. I know I wont get to Europe this year but it is a goal of mine. I would love to go to France and Italy.
Next week, New Bedford. :)

Sunday, September 09, 2007

A Few Things

UFC
Last night, Matt Hamill, the UFC wrestler got robed. I could not believe they scored the fight in favor of Bisping. I dont think they were watching the same fight. The only thing I could bring it down too was the home advantage. In my opinion, Hamill dominated the first two rounds. In some parts of the fight he even let Bisping stand back up so he could keep fighting. I still think he has some MMA work to do but I bet we will see a lot more of him soon. His hook stunned a few times last night. Another fighter I liked last night was Marcus Davis, The Irish Hand Grenade. He was very fit and fought a great fight. I will look for him to keep moving up too. My favorite is still George St. Pierre. Cant wait for his next fight.

Trainer
Well I finally did it. Yesterday I hired a personal trainer. I have been doing some cardio for a while now so it is time to add the weight training. It was expensive for 12 sessions but I think it will really help me reach my goal. I will be posting a before picture on my myspace today and a few more each couple of weeks to show my progress. Hopefully by the time I move home in November I will be a little closer. This should also help me in my 5k's. I have been reading that your time improves when you loose weight. With just a year at the gym my stamina and endurance has doubled. That is a good thing. Now I can just keep going and going.

Piper
First part of his journey to Ireland is up. Yeah! How can I live vicariously through him if he does not post. :) Read the post, it is good. He got to meet the Hulk.

Gym
I am going to the gym today for my first session. This should not be too fun. It will be before pictures, measurements and nutrition. I will not be posting my measurements on my myspace. Hope she has a tape measure big enough for the top. :) Wish me luck!

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

To Do List

"I really dont mind what happens now and then, as long as you'll be my friend in the end."

I have this fantasy that I have had since I was about 13. When I talk about this fantasy everyone looks at me like I am crazy. It is not that big of a deal. The more I have talked about the more I get that, "Are you fucked up," look from friends. I have wanted to have sex in the rain. You know kind of muddy and literally dirty. I am not sure how this came about anymore but it remains on top of my "to do" list.
People I work with have their own "to do" list. They want to have sex in public, in a bathroom, just not with a senator. Some of them want to have sex at a park, or in the water at a beach or in a plane. Others have different food related fantasies where they want to be the buffet at a table full of men. Others are more into the whipped cream and berries type of thing. None of my friends have any real bondage things on their list. None that they will admit too anyway.
I am rambling. Sorry! I have been working on my myspace lately and have been in photo bucket. It appears that I am not alone with my rainy, muddy fantasy. There are quite a few icons that talk about being in the rain, being naked in the rain, kissing in the rain. I guess it will remain on my "to do" list after all. Along with a few others I will not share yet.